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Hello again.

Life is…alright. 🙂

I’ve got a new job. I work with clothes now. Don’t really feel like naming it publicly, since, as always, I like to keep my job. I get paid more out on the floor than I ever made as a “manager” at walmart, so that’s nice. Work isn’t too hard except that my body is more than a little annoyed with me. My knees have been protesting, and my hand doesn’t like it when I make a pinching motion (or even turning on the screen on my phone due to it going to sleep). Like, I’m somewhat concerned about my hand, but I’m pretty sure it’s because of how I’ve been holding the hangers, and I hope that will help it, at least a little.

Some of you may remember me obsessing about wanting to join roller derby? Well, I’ve gone and signed up for a fresh meat class. There might be a minor hitch the plans, but if so, it’ll all be fixed by the next time they offer the class (which is necessary before you can try to join the league!) I’m going to buy skates for it on Tuesday. I have skates, but apparently they are ill suited for derby, the least of it being they are high top and the ankles need to be able to move freely. Only problem is, skate shop is up in Nashua, which is a state over. Only about an hour away though. And maybe I’ll make a day of it by going to the indoor sky diving place that is literally right down the street from where the skate shop is (I probably won’t, shhh)

Funny story. I’ve been to the indoor sky diving place before. Lots of fun. Most recently, I actually saw skate shop as we were leaving. I saw the name, and wondered what in the world was sold there. And now here I am, actually making a trip specifically to go to said store. But seriously, it’s literally right down the street. I was amazed. I can probably see sky  diving place from skate shop, and vice versa.

But oh, if only I didn’t have to go there. But the gear needs to actually fit, class starts a week from Wednesday, returns would take forever, and there’s no sizing chart on the website. But I should get it from them, because they do a special deal with “fresh meat”.

OH MY GOD I’M SO EXCITED THIS MIGHT ACTUALLY FINALLY BE HAPPENING!!! And the best part is, when I tell people, they don’t expect little ol’ me to even WANT to do roller derby.

Other than that, things are things. The holidays went well, if awkwardly. Still mostly not talking to my mom, this mostly on her side this time for reasons I can’t even begin to fathom (seriously, I have no idea). Survived Nemo, and might post some ridiculous pictures soon. And….that’s it. I work. I come home. I watch bad tv shows. I sleep. Repeat. Sometimes something cool happens. Not that interesting. 🙂

Life

Happy Thanksgiving tomorrow, all of my lovely readers! Sorry I haven’t written much recently, life has just been…strange.

Finally left “Big Blue Box Store” Aka walmart. That was good. My other job is kinda annoying though. I feel so slimy, selling people expensive shit they don’t need. I’m mostly viewing it as a stopgap job until I can get another one. I don’t know if I can keep working there much longer regardless though. It was a bad decision. But if I had stayed at walmart, due to scheduling, I wouldn’t have been able to do Thanksgiving, because I’d have to be back too early to even make it worth going. Argh

Good thing about all this though? I was thinking about it earlier today…and I did some math…and I figured out how much I need to make an hour to be self sufficient. To be able to live on my own, pay my bills, so on and so forth, without needing a roomie or anything. Not that I’m necessarily planning on it, or anything, or at least, any time soon. But so that I could if I wanted to. And so I’ve started to look for those jobs. I’m not going to settle for less than that. I’m a smart girl, I am capable of so much more than what I’ve been doing, and I’m tired of dealing with the bull that comes along with living as I have.

I’m also sorting out some school stuff, that I should have sorted out ages ago. I don’t know why I didn’t. Fear of messing up, or falling flat on my face? Depression? I don’t know. But I’m moving forward.

I know where I want to be in life. Now I just need to somehow figure out how to get there. And get out of retail hell, because without years of experience, they aren’t going to pay me what I need to get what I want.

But other than that, stuff is okay enough. Everyone around me is upgrading their phones, and I didn’t get the one I wanted, but at least I have a working phone, so I can be grateful for that. I have friends who occasionally do stuff with me (even though they don’t do all that I want with me. But then, I want people around constantly, so that would never happen). And even if I fuck things up royally, I have a roof over my head. And even though it’s all for temporary stuff, and none of them fit these new goals I’ve made, I’ve gotten like…three calls back about jobs this past week? So that’s promising, and hopefully will continue as I move on up to other types of jobs. Just got to keep trying until I get there. And, probably, fake it until I make it, although hopefully not that much of that, because I hate faking, and that’s part of why I hate current job!

…Before this turns into a total whine fest, I’m going to stop. But, life is okay enough, I am okay enough, and hopefully things will be better soon (because I am optimistic at the moment, and believe I have what it takes! Let’s hope it doesn’t crash down and swing the same amount the opposite way!)

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