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Derby!

So….I’m in a fresh meat class for roller derby!

I have a derby blog, if any of ya’ll feel like following it. The link is: http://derby-tales.tumblr.com

It’s more obnoxious to comment if you aren’t a tumblr user, but you can send me an “ask” and I’ll post a reply, if you want to talk about derby stuff.

I gets updated twice a week, after each derby practice. There’s not  that much there yet, but it’s nice to have a record…. and I’m sure I’ll have more thoughts about the whole thing as it goes along. And our first crack at assessment so that we can become a level one skater happens on my birthday! YAYYYYY.

Anyways, I have a cold, and have to try to decide if it’s worth it braving my cold and the snow for class tonight. Ta!

Life

Happy Thanksgiving tomorrow, all of my lovely readers! Sorry I haven’t written much recently, life has just been…strange.

Finally left “Big Blue Box Store” Aka walmart. That was good. My other job is kinda annoying though. I feel so slimy, selling people expensive shit they don’t need. I’m mostly viewing it as a stopgap job until I can get another one. I don’t know if I can keep working there much longer regardless though. It was a bad decision. But if I had stayed at walmart, due to scheduling, I wouldn’t have been able to do Thanksgiving, because I’d have to be back too early to even make it worth going. Argh

Good thing about all this though? I was thinking about it earlier today…and I did some math…and I figured out how much I need to make an hour to be self sufficient. To be able to live on my own, pay my bills, so on and so forth, without needing a roomie or anything. Not that I’m necessarily planning on it, or anything, or at least, any time soon. But so that I could if I wanted to. And so I’ve started to look for those jobs. I’m not going to settle for less than that. I’m a smart girl, I am capable of so much more than what I’ve been doing, and I’m tired of dealing with the bull that comes along with living as I have.

I’m also sorting out some school stuff, that I should have sorted out ages ago. I don’t know why I didn’t. Fear of messing up, or falling flat on my face? Depression? I don’t know. But I’m moving forward.

I know where I want to be in life. Now I just need to somehow figure out how to get there. And get out of retail hell, because without years of experience, they aren’t going to pay me what I need to get what I want.

But other than that, stuff is okay enough. Everyone around me is upgrading their phones, and I didn’t get the one I wanted, but at least I have a working phone, so I can be grateful for that. I have friends who occasionally do stuff with me (even though they don’t do all that I want with me. But then, I want people around constantly, so that would never happen). And even if I fuck things up royally, I have a roof over my head. And even though it’s all for temporary stuff, and none of them fit these new goals I’ve made, I’ve gotten like…three calls back about jobs this past week? So that’s promising, and hopefully will continue as I move on up to other types of jobs. Just got to keep trying until I get there. And, probably, fake it until I make it, although hopefully not that much of that, because I hate faking, and that’s part of why I hate current job!

…Before this turns into a total whine fest, I’m going to stop. But, life is okay enough, I am okay enough, and hopefully things will be better soon (because I am optimistic at the moment, and believe I have what it takes! Let’s hope it doesn’t crash down and swing the same amount the opposite way!)

Day 1 – Do you believe in god?/What religion are you?
Day 2 – Do you believe in an afterlife? What do you believe happens when you die?
Day 3 – Are you proud to be from whatever country you are from?
Day 4 – What is your view on gay marriage? Homosexuality in general?
Day 5 – Do you think sex before marriage is okay?
Day 6 – How do you feel that sex education should be handled in schools?
Day 7 – Do you want to get married and/or have kids?
Day 8 – Do you think any drugs should be legalized? Do you think there should be an age for drinking?
Day 9 – Pro-life or pro-choice?
Day 10 – Have any opinions about year-round schooling?
Day 11 – What do you think about prostitution? Should it be legal?
Day 12 – Do you think men today are too “wimpy” and need to “man up”? How do you feel about gender roles as a whole?Day 13 – Do you think there should be an age to get tattoos/piercings without the consent of a parent?
Day 14 – Do you believe in aliens?

Day 15 – Do you believe in regrets? Do you have any terrible ones?
Day 16 – What do you want to happen to your body when you die?
Day 17 – How about that cloning stuff?
Day 18 – What is your take on people who self harm (cutting, burning, scratching etc etc.)
Day 19 – Do you think high schools should give out free contraceptives?
Day 20 – What do you think about plastic surgery?
Day 21 – What do you think about the death penalty?
Day 22 – Do you say your country’s national anthem/pledge of allegiance when it is said/listened to?
Day 23 – What do you think about thinspo?
Day 24 – Euthanasia – Your thoughts?
Day 25 – Do you think violent video games should be banned?
Day 26 – Which do you think should be taught in schools: Evolution or creationism?
Day 27 – “Illegal” downloading – Yay or nay?
Day 28 – Do you think zero tolerance policies are effective in achieving their objectives?
Day 29 – Do you feel as though women should be able to walk around topless like men? Why or why not?
Day 30 – Do you think the internet should be censored?

Well, I try to live my life so that I have no regrets, ’cause you can’t go back. But no one is perfect, so even though they’ve helped me become the person I am today, there are some things I regret. There are only two big regret type things that I have. Without getting too into it, I wish I had told someone something and I wish I hadn’t done something. But sorry, you’ll have to deal with the vague, they’re both things I don’t share publicly.

Day 1 – Do you believe in god?/What religion are you?
Day 2 – Do you believe in an afterlife? What do you believe happens when you die?
Day 3 – Are you proud to be from whatever country you are from?
Day 4 – What is your view on gay marriage? Homosexuality in general?
Day 5 – Do you think sex before marriage is okay?
Day 6 – How do you feel that sex education should be handled in schools?
Day 7 – Do you want to get married and/or have kids?
Day 8 – Do you think any drugs should be legalized? Do you think there should be an age for drinking?
Day 9 – Pro-life or pro-choice?
Day 10 – Have any opinions about year-round schooling?
Day 11 – What do you think about prostitution? Should it be legal?
Day 12 – Do you think men today are too “wimpy” and need to “man up”? How do you feel about gender roles as a whole?
Day 13 – Do you think there should be an age to get tattoos/piercings without the consent of a parent?

Day 14 – Do you believe in aliens?
Day 15 – Do you believe in regrets? Do you have any terrible ones?
Day 16 – What do you want to happen to your body when you die?
Day 17 – How about that cloning stuff?
Day 18 – What is your take on people who self harm (cutting, burning, scratching etc etc.)
Day 19 – Do you think high schools should give out free contraceptives?
Day 20 – What do you think about plastic surgery?
Day 21 – What do you think about the death penalty?
Day 22 – Do you say your country’s national anthem/pledge of allegiance when it is said/listened to?
Day 23 – What do you think about thinspo?
Day 24 – Euthanasia – Your thoughts?
Day 25 – Do you think violent video games should be banned?
Day 26 – Which do you think should be taught in schools: Evolution or creationism?
Day 27 – “Illegal” downloading – Yay or nay?
Day 28 – Do you think zero tolerance policies are effective in achieving their objectives?
Day 29 – Do you feel as though women should be able to walk around topless like men? Why or why not?
Day 30 – Do you think the internet should be censored?

Not in the anal probe-y kind of way. But the universe IS a big place. Maybe there’s something out there, yanno? Just because we haven’t found them on the limited frequencies and limited directions we’ve been looking at doesn’t mean there isn’t anything out there. And if Carl Sagan believed it’s possible, then who am I to argue?


Day 1 – Do you believe in god?/What religion are you?
Day 2 – Do you believe in an afterlife? What do you believe happens when you die?
Day 3 – Are you proud to be from whatever country you are from?
Day 4 – What is your view on gay marriage? Homosexuality in general?
Day 5 – Do you think sex before marriage is okay?
Day 6 – How do you feel that sex education should be handled in schools?
Day 7 – Do you want to get married and/or have kids?
Day 8 – Do you think any drugs should be legalized? Do you think there should be an age for drinking?
Day 9 – Pro-life or pro-choice?
Day 10 – Have any opinions about year-round schooling?
Day 11 – What do you think about prostitution? Should it be legal?
Day 12 – Do you think men today are too “wimpy” and need to “man up”? How do you feel about gender roles as a whole?

Day 13 – Do you think there should be an age to get tattoos/piercings without the consent of a parent?
Day 14 – Do you believe in aliens?
Day 15 – Do you believe in regrets? Do you have any terrible ones?
Day 16 – What do you want to happen to your body when you die?
Day 17 – How about that cloning stuff?
Day 18 – What is your take on people who self harm (cutting, burning, scratching etc etc.)
Day 19 – Do you think high schools should give out free contraceptives?
Day 20 – What do you think about plastic surgery?
Day 21 – What do you think about the death penalty?
Day 22 – Do you say your country’s national anthem/pledge of allegiance when it is said/listened to?
Day 23 – What do you think about thinspo?
Day 24 – Euthanasia – Your thoughts?
Day 25 – Do you think violent video games should be banned?
Day 26 – Which do you think should be taught in schools: Evolution or creationism?
Day 27 – “Illegal” downloading – Yay or nay?
Day 28 – Do you think zero tolerance policies are effective in achieving their objectives?
Day 29 – Do you feel as though women should be able to walk around topless like men? Why or why not?
Day 30 – Do you think the internet should be censored?

Do I think there should be? Yes. I’d say around 15-16 or so.

But I worry about the parents. The teenager is still considered a minor. If a parent decides to sue, could they hypothetically win on those grounds? And even if they don’t win, isn’t going through a suit a bit heavy on the money?

I do, however, think the age of being able to get tattoo’d with parental consent should be expanded. I got my tattoo when I was 16, but that was the youngest they were allowed to do it they said. I’m not sure if it was store policy or what, but if I had been any younger, I wouldn’t be allowed to have gotten it. And that was WITH parental permission, they wouldn’t have let me get it without my mom there. But I don’t quite agree with it. I mean, yes, teenagers can sometimes be immature, but if the parent is there, agreeing to it…then again, there are some pretty stupid parents out there who would have their child get a stupid tattoo as a joke and the kid goes along with it not knowing any better…but that’s the minority (or at least so i keep telling myself).

To be honest, I’ve never thought about this issue that much before, so I’m kinda just throwing out my first thoughts. Age is such an arbitrary number to go by. There are 14 year old kids who I wouldn’t trust to walk down the street alone, and then there are really mature 10 year olds, yanno? I think it should decide more on the maturity of a minor, but since we don’t have a simple test for that, it defaults back to age. Meh.

Day 1 – Do you believe in god?/What religion are you?
Day 2 – Do you believe in an afterlife? What do you believe happens when you die?
Day 3 – Are you proud to be from whatever country you are from?
Day 4 – What is your view on gay marriage? Homosexuality in general?
Day 5 – Do you think sex before marriage is okay?
Day 6 – How do you feel that sex education should be handled in schools?
Day 7 – Do you want to get married and/or have kids?
Day 8 – Do you think any drugs should be legalized? Do you think there should be an age for drinking?
Day 9 – Pro-life or pro-choice?
Day 10 – Have any opinions about year-round schooling?
Day 11 – What do you think about prostitution? Should it be legal?
Day 12 – Do you think men today are too “wimpy” and need to “man up”? How do you feel about gender roles as a whole?
Day 13 – Do you think there should be an age to get tattoos/piercings without the consent of a parent?
Day 14 – Do you believe in aliens?
Day 15 – Do you believe in regrets? Do you have any terrible ones?
Day 16 – What do you want to happen to your body when you die?
Day 17 – How about that cloning stuff?
Day 18 – What is your take on people who self harm (cutting, burning, scratching etc etc.)
Day 19 – Do you think high schools should give out free contraceptives?
Day 20 – What do you think about plastic surgery?
Day 21 – What do you think about the death penalty?
Day 22 – Do you say your country’s national anthem/pledge of allegiance when it is said/listened to?
Day 23 – what do you think about thinspo?
Day 24 – Euthanasia – Your thoughts?
Day 25 – Do you think violent video games should be banned?
Day 26 – Which do you think should be taught in schools: Evolution or creationism?
Day 27 – “Illegal” downloading – Yay or nay?
Day 28 – Do you think zero tolerance policies are effective in achieving their objectives?
Day 29 – Do you feel as though women should be able to walk around topless like men? Why or why not?
Day 30 – Do you think the internet should be censored?

Sadly, due to the whole atheism thing, I don’t think we go to heaven or hell or anything. We go into the ground. Sad sad. I think I’ll sum it up by using a quote from the song Floating by Jape… “Our lifetimes are short, and death is so long, I don’t believe in no heaven I just hope that I’m wrong, I hope we’re floating.”
In other words, I don’t expect there to be anything after death, but if I find out there’s something else out there after I die, I probably won’t be too upset. Especially because any god that I would want to spend any sort of time with would care more about how you tried to live your life, instead of whether or not you followed some silly rules to a T, especially since if I’m wrong and there is a heaven and hell and it’s decided strictly by whether or not you followed the rules in a particular book or whatever exactly…then I’d wager most people in the world are going to the bad place. And a god who would do that is no god worth worshiping, in my book, so I’d rather be down with all the sinners if that’s the case.

I’ve been asked by a friend to advise you to not watch this video while drunk or otherwise intoxicated. Apparently he had an interesting night once after watching this video…

I hate automatic flushing toilets. With a passion.

My school has installed them. Even in the library, which actually isn’t used all that much. I’m not quite sure why.

There are so many problems with them. Depending on how you use the toilet, there can be quite a bit of accidental flushing. If you sit down on the seat, if you lean forward AT ALL, FLUSH! Not only is water wasted, but now your butt is wet with nasty toilet water that, unless you flush it before you go, who knows what was in there…and yet my school installed these special flushing handles that supposedly save water that you flush one way for solid waste and another for liquid waste…seems like a bit of a null gain…

“But what about if you squat?” you ask! Well, then the wasted water is worst! The sensor seems to be right where you squat, because any movement at all seems to set it off!

And then, of course, there’s the problem of half the time it flushes before you’re done wiping. So you’ve got to decide between being an ass and leaving it there fore the next person to handle or waste more water with flushing it! And these things flush with such force that it sprinkles water all over the seat, making it look like you peed and sprayed. So you’re left with leaving it, wiping it up and trying to flush it which simply perpetuates the problem, or wipe it off and carry it to a different trash can (if there even is one! My school is good at forgetting things like that) and get weird looks from people for carrying a piece of wadded up toilet paper outside of the stall…

 

Side rant I made to friends one time after one too many drinks:

If you aren’t a douche, you should put the seat down after you pee, at least, in private bathrooms (public bathrooms are a bit different, and unrelated to this side rant). Not even just because of girls. Let me break it down.

So, there are boys and girls. Both boys and girls pee and poop. So, for the sake of this argument…let’s just say they pee and poop at about equal rates. So, that’s 4 equal options. Girls put the seat down for peeing and pooping. Guys have the seat down for pooping. Therefore, 75% of the time, the seat needs to be down. Therefore, the probability of the seat needing to be down is much higher than the seat is going to be needed up. Three times higher, as a matter of fact. So, therefore, be kind to the other people needing the bathroom, and put the seat down…

I don’t know what I’m going to do…

Asmodean and Padawan had their first litter. Asmo jumped on Padawan the day she gave birth. That resulted in a second litter. I separated them, but there was a mishap, and there’s the possibility that Asmo impregnated her again. The only person who has taken any is my mom and sister, who collectively took 2.

I can’t keep them all. I can’t afford to feed them, quite honestly. A bag of food that would usually last a month and a half lasted maybe 3 weeks? And that was bought BEFORE the little squeakers started eating solid food. And the mouse food isn’t THAT expensive, it’s about $7, but it adds up, and I’m unemployed. And add in the fact that I need to change the bedding more often because there’s more mouse shit in there…

I COULD give them to the pet store, but I know that most of the mice the pet store has are fed to snakes, and the idea of the mice getting eaten seriously makes me cry. Like, we’re talking me sobbing for a good half an hour crying. I don’t cry at the thought of other people taking them…but knowing that they’d most likely be eaten…I can’t d it. I can give them as pets, but I can’t do it if I know they’ll be food, or killed, or what have you… and I haven’t the heart to set them lose, either. It’s winter, and cold, and they, and their ancestors, have been raised in tanks, so their survival skills are probably close to non-existent besides “Run away from the human”.

I just don’t know what to do. Boyfriend is pressuring me to do something about them, I won’t be able to feed all of them for much longer, and when I even think about, nevermind try, to bring them to the pet store, I start sobbing, and no one seems to want any of them.

So I ask again, does anyone want any mice? Please, to make a sad Momo stop crying?

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