Because this is my blog, I can do whatever I want with it. So, I’ve decided to talk about my resolutions here, so that I can get down what I want to accomplish, and how I intend to accomplish it, so that way I can think about it a bit more.

Resolution #1: Become more financially stable

This resolution carried over from last year.

Last year, I moved out on my own and into my first apartment during the first week of January, and I was scared shitless. I had no job (I moved out of the state I had been living with my mom during a leave of absence I had been taking to go and be up near my school), very little money (I had to pay mom rent while I was there, because…well, it’s a long story. And I had a cell phone to pay for and credit card bills to pay down. So I didn’t have much money….), and no idea how to survive. I knew I had a refund check coming to me, but I didn’t know how to survive beyond that if I was unable to find a job. It was my first time out on my own, so I knew I had to become organized, and I knew I didn’t want to move back home, so I made myself a promise that I would become financially independent  in the next year. For the most part I did, except for a few times when my paycheck came a day or two late and I needed to borrow some money from my boyfriend, but I mostly made it through. But it came close some times. There were times I couldn’t afford food and my bills, so I ate very little, or asked my friends if I could use their guest passes to get into the Dining Hall. The fact that it got so bad and I cut it so close those few times upsets me. I don’t want to have to borrow money from people, no matter how briefly, and I don’t want to have to worry about where my next meal will come from (although to be fair, I haven’t had to worry about the meal thing for a while. My boyfriend and I have moved in together and pooled our food resources, so it’s not that big of a deal anymore).

So, how am I going to become more stable? I’m going to start making sure I get the full amount of hours I can from the professor who I work with, so that I can get the maximum amount of money from that. I’m also going to start trying to pick up more shifts as a desk attendant (basically, you sit there and check people’s ID’s as they come in. You write guest passes for people who aren’t students at the school. So, in other words, homework time. The only reason I don’t like to pick up shifts is because I live about 20 minutes away from campus by foot, and it’s cold. Plus, I don’t like wasting 40 minutes of my time for a 3 hour shift, especially ’cause I hate walking alone…but that’s another story…) . Also, this will be hard, but I’m going to try to stop buying crap I don’t need. It’s hard because I like buying things. Every so often, it’s nice to buy yourself things, and it helps keep me motivated, it’s kinda like a reward for surviving and not failing out of school. But it usually ends up biting me in the ass, so I need to stop doing it, or at least, do it less often. I don’t do it all that often to start with, I don’t think, but I’ll try my hardest to make sure that I don’t do it more than once a month if it’s small, or every other month (at most frequent) if it ends up being something bigger. Self control is key here. No matter how much I don’t really care about Islamophobia, I need to buckle down and research it. Plus, things are looking up, because when I posted my resolutions on my status, the professor wrote that he has a LOT of work for me when the semester starts up again.

The second resolution?

Continue writing this blog

The way to accomplish that is to least do the WTF Wednesday and FTW Friday every week, and it’ll be cool. Hopefully I’ll continue writing more than that, but at the very least those two posts will go up every week. I find tons of WTF and FTW stuff every week, so it should be easy….

Resolution the third:

Actually get somewhere with my webcomic.

I don’t really know how to motivate myself for this. I have the comics, just, they’re on paper, in sketch form. I need to re-draw them on my tablet. And then there’s the matter of scale, and the fact that it’s pressure sensitivity is kinda funky someones….. and it becomes troublesome. But I’ve wanted to do one on and off from 7th or 8th grade on. So hopefully that’ll keep me trying at it…

Resolution the fourth:

Exercise more

This isn’t about weight loss. I’ve always been very slim. I’m about 5′ 4″ (well, more properly, I’m 5′ 3 3/4″, but it’s close enough) and I weighed 107 the other day. Apparently, that’s underweight, according to the BMI calculator online. 18.5 starts the underweight-ness, and I was 18.4. Which isn’t good, especially because I haven’t been dieting or anything, and never have dieted. I hadn’t had much of an appetite the few days prior though, and my appetite kicked in the next day, so it’s probably not as bad anymore. But that doesn’t have anything to do with exercising. Since I don’t need to excercise, I never really have, except for a brief stint at tae kwon do (which I LOVED, but I was about to go away to college, and needed to save money, so I had to quit) That means I am out of shape. I get winded easily. My punches are laughable. I need help taking my laundry across the st to the laundromat.

How do I plan on achieving this? I love to dance. It’s fun to do. I like the feeling of moving I get when I dance. But I’m horribly self-conscious. So, once a week, when my boyfriend is at class or work (it always happens, inevitably) I’ll dance around like a fool to silly pop music from back when I was in middle school and have fun. I have fun, and I’ll be exercising. Once I get stronger, maybe I can work my way up to getting motivated enough to go to the campus gym. As I said up there though, it’s a 20 minute walk from my apartment. I’d have to somehow schedule it in while I’m already on campus, ’cause there isn’t any way in hell I’m gonna walk there, excercise, then walk back. Nuh-uh, not happening…. but that’s a way off. I have to stick with my dancing before I can stick to the gym….

Resolution the fifth:

Try to be the best person I can be

Do my best in school. Apply myself in work. Be nice to people when possible. Exercise once or twice a week. Just in general be the best person I am. Motive myself by wanting to be a better person, so that I won’t regret anything later.

And that’s about it. Yep. Happy New Year guys!

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